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Not Like Them

These faces seem so unfamiliar… they look like they belong…  I feel so out of place.  So different. So “not” like them.

Is this feeling of exclusion always going to invade everything I do?  I didn’t grow up happy…  I didn’t grow up belonging…     And now, here I am, middle aged, and I still feel like a stranger among friends.  Will I ever get to the place where I don’t sit there and doubt every word I say, every emotion I feel, every choice?

I’m not sure what each day will bring.   I think I know what God wants me to do, even though some days I feel horribly incompetent.  One thing I am certain of– I know that each and every day is a new opportunity for me to start fresh.

I can’t change what happened ten, twenty, or thirty years ago…  I can’t change the awkward thing I said or did five seconds ago…  but I CAN make a conscious effort to try to make a difference to someone else- maybe there is someone out there like me, watching me, listening,  and too afraid to say, “Hey, I understand you, I’ve gone through the same things!”   After all, don’t we just want to be able to find someone who actually gets us, that doesn’t look at us like we are damaged?

My hope and prayer is that you, first of all, embrace your awkward self, your weirdness, your out of place personality, and realize that your ability to stand out in a crowd is a gift that can be used to bring in more people like you.  You can be a leader, you can be the different one and, in fact, you are more like Jesus than you realize.  YES- YOU!!

Do you think Jesus led people to know God by blending in?  Do you think he would’ve gotten anyone’s attention by looking, acting, and being like everyone else?  NO!!

So, today, take a moment and be thankful for being different.  For once, realize that you will create change, you will impact lives, you will make a difference because of the fact that you don’t blend in with everyone else- and THAT is what makes you beautiful!!

Jeremiah 1:5 “I knew you before I formed you in your mother’s womb. Before you were born I set you apart and appointed you as my prophet to the nations.”   So see, you weren’t meant to fit the mold- you were born to break it!  You were born for more.

Prayers for peace, and I hope this message helped you today.  Please share with someone you think needs to hear it, too.

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Stop trying to please man!!

Are you sitting there worrying about how someone is going to respond to you?  STOP

There are always going to be people around who take pleasure in finding what is wrong, in creating chaos where there is none, in making your life miserable because THEY themselves are actually the miserable ones.

Who will you ultimately be answering to?   I can guarantee that when your book of life is opened, they won’t be the ones reading it.

YOU are a child of GOD!!    Take your worries, your struggles, concerns- TAKE IT ALL to the one who created you and knows every hair upon your head.   You may not know or completely understand how God can handle your situation, but that is none of your business!!   Let HIM handle your situations.  Your job is to TRUST and BELIEVE.

I pray that this word has helped someone today.  Keep being a light to shine upon the world.   You never know how many people are being touched by your example.

Psalm 119:105 (KJV)–   They word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.




I’ve never given full trust to God.   

There, I admit it.   I’ve always had an untrustful side that refused to believe that anyone could love me as much as God claimed to love me.   

Because of this mistrust. I never committed to tithing out of every paycheck.   I was scared we wouldn’t make it.   Scared we wouldn’t have food to eat or a way to buy diapers, formula, and pay the electric bill.  Because, in all honesty, we weren’t making it…. and I couldn’t see how “giving away” money to our church was going to help us.   

This month, after almost twenty years of marriage, we started tithing.   And, no, nothing miraculous happened.  I didn’t open the mailbox and find a check from a long lost relative or receive a huge royalty check from book sales.  What I have discovered is that there’s a peace I’ve never known.   A feeling that my Father is watching over me and sees that we are trusting Him.  

I don’t have the answers.  We still struggle daily, but I suppose that keeps us grounded and humble.   What I do know is that we will survive.   We will be okay.   We will trust and believe in God’s promises and be the example that our children need.   We’re not alone, and that’s the greatest feeling we’ve ever known.   

What do you struggle with when it comes to trusting God?